He’d found a treasure, that was the meaning of it. Something precious, wonderful, rare.
And what did he do with his spirit hoard?
Squandered it. Every last fucking coin. Gone, and what was left to show for it?
Whores are warm to the touch, but they hide their souls inside a cold keep. It’s when you surrender to that world that you know you are truly lost, you are finally… alone.
It’s all cold to the touch these days. Everything. And now I spend the rest of my years blaming every damned coin.
But nobody’s fooled. Except me. Always me. Forever me.
He longed to draw his sword, to vanish into the mad mayhem of battle. He could then cut in two every face on every coin, howling that it made a difference, that a life wasn’t empty if it was filled with detritus. He could scream and curse and see not a single friend-only enemies. Justifying every slice, every lash of blood. At the very least, he vowed, he’d be the last one standing.
Smiles said the fever had scarred him. Perhaps it had. Perhaps it would from now on. It had done one thing for certain: it had shown him the truth of solitude. And that truth was seared into his soul. He listened to Fiddler going on and on about this so-called family of companions, and he believed none of it. Betrayals stalked the future-he felt it in his bones. There was coming a time when everything would cut clear, and he could stand before them all and speak aloud the fullest measure of his distrust. We are each of us alone. We always were. I am done with all your lies. Now, save yourselves. As I intend to do for myself.
He wasn’t interested in any last stands. The Adjunct asked for faith, loyalty. She asked for honesty, no matter how brutal, how incriminating. She asked for too much. Besides, she gave them nothing in return, did she?
Koryk stood, facing the empty land in the empty night, and contemplated deserting.
Everything they gave me was a lie, a betrayal. It was the spirit hoard, you see. Those coins. Someone put them there to lure me in, to trap me. They poisoned me-not my fault, how could it be?
‘Look at him under that boulder! Careful, Koryk, playing under there will get you crushed!’
Too late. It was all those fucking coins that did me in. You can’t fill a boy’s hands like that. You just can’t.
It was a memory. Maybe real, maybe not.
The whores, they just wink.
Skanarow’s lithe form rippled with shadows as someone outside the tent walked past bearing a lantern. The light coming through the canvas was cool, giving her sleeping form a deathly hue. Chilled by the vision, Ruthan Gudd looked away. He sat up, moving slowly to keep her from waking.
The sweat that had sheathed him earlier was drying on his skin.
He had no interest in revisiting the cause of his extremity-it wasn’t the love-making, Hood knew. As pleasing as she was-with that sudden smile of hers that could melt mountains of ice-Skanarow didn’t have it in her to send his heart thundering the way it had not long ago. She could delight, she could steal him away from his thoughts, his memories of a grim and eventful life; she could, in bright, stunning flashes, give him back his life.
But this night darkness had opened its flower, with a scent that could freeze a god’s soul. Still alive, Greymane? Did you feel it? I think, your bones could be rotting in the ground right now, old friend, and still you’d have felt it.
Draconus.
Fuck.
He combed through the damp snarl of his beard.
The world shook. Balls of fire descending, the terrible light filling the sky. Fists hammering the world.
Wish I’d seen it.
But he remembered the Azath’s deathcry. He remembered the gnarled trees engulfed in pillars of flames, the bitter heat of the soil he’d clawed through. He remembered staggering free beneath a crazed sky of lurid smoke, lightning and a deluge of ashes. He remembered his first thought, riding that breath of impossible freedom.
Jacuruku, you’ve changed.
One found loyalty under the strangest circumstances. Penitence and gratitude, arms entwined, a moment’s lustful exultation mistaken for worship. His gaze flicked back to Skanarow. The shadows and ill hue were gone. She slept, beauty in repose. Innocence was so precious. But do not think of me with love, woman. Do not force upon me a moment of confession, the truth of foolish vows uttered a lifetime ago.
Let us play this game of blissful oblivion a little while longer.
‘It’s better this way, Draconus.’
‘This is Kallor’s empire, friend. Will you not reconsider?’
Reconsider. Yes, there is that. ‘The shore seems welcoming enough. If I mind my own business…’
He’d smiled at that.
