There was more yelling outside, as the police got there right along with the ambulance and began urging everyone to move back, move back, and then the ambulance guys were there inside the room and Matthew and I had to get out of the narrow space so they could work.
The police took me outside, and I could not remember a single face after that night. "Someone shot him through the window," I said, to the first face that seemed to be asking me a question. "I was standing behind him and someone shot him through the window."
"What relation?" asked the face.
"I'm his sister," I said automatically. "This is his dad. Not my dad, but his." I don't know why I made the distinction, except I'd been making it clear to people for years that I had no kinship to Matthew Lang.
"You need to go to the hospital, too," said the face. "You need to get that glass pulled out."
"What glass?" I said. "Tolliver got shot."
"You have glass in your face," the man said. I could see now that he was a man, that he was an older man in his fifties. I could see that he had brown eyes and deep creases radiating from their corners, and a big mouth and crooked teeth. "You gotta get that pulled out and cleaned."
I needed to start wearing safety goggles if I was going to keep on getting glass in my face.
Then I was at the hospital, sitting in a cubicle, and someone had taken my wallet from my purse to get the insurance information. About a hundred people were asking me questions, but I couldn't talk. I was waiting for someone to come to tell me how Tolliver was doing, and there was no point in talking until I knew what had happened to him. The doctor who was removing the glass seemed a little scared of me. She tried to keep talking, maybe thinking I'd relax if her voice kept going.
"You need to look down while I get this piece out," she said finally, and when I looked down I could feel the tension go out of her body. I must have been staring. I was wishing that I could let go of my body and float down the hall to see what was happening to my brother. If I promised to give him up if he lived, would that help? The bargains you make when you are frightened are probably a true measure of your character. Or maybe just an accurate measure of your primitive nature, what you would be like if you'd never been to a mall or gotten a paycheck or relied on someone else to provide your food.
A woman in a pink smock asked me if there was anyone else she could call for me, anyone who would like to stay with me, and I knew I would start screaming if I saw Iona or Hank, so I said no.
They let his dad go in with him. Not me! I had to get the glass out! I was so angry I thought the top of my head was going to come off when my brain exploded. But I didn't scream. I kept it inside me. When the doctor and the nurse had finished with me, and they'd given me a couple of pills because they thought I'd have an uncomfortable time of it for a while, I nodded to them and went in search of Tolliver. I found Matthew sitting in a waiting room, talking to a policeman.
He looked at me when I came in, and I could see the caution in his face.
"This is Tolliver's stepsister. She was in the room with him, standing behind him," Matthew said, as if he were the master of ceremonies introducing the lineup.
The policeman was a detective, I guess, since he was in slacks and a shirt and a Windbreaker. He was very tall, and he looked to me like a former football star, which in fact turned out to be the case. Parker Powers had been a famous high school football player from Longview, Texas, who'd gotten injured two years into his contract with the Dallas Cowboys. That made him very nearly a star, certainly a notable. I got all that within ten minutes of meeting him, thanks to Matthew Lang.
Detective Powers was a medium shade of brown and had light blue eyes. His hair was dusty brown and curly and clipped close. He wore a wide wedding ring.
"Who do you think shot at you?" he asked me, which was more direct than I'd expected.
"I can't imagine," I said. "I would have said it was Matthew, here, if he hadn't gotten back in the room so quickly."
"Why his dad?"
"Because who else cares?" I said, realizing that wasn't the most coherent way to make my point. "Granted, some people don't like what we do, but we're honest and we don't make enemies. At least, not any that I knew of. Obviously, we made at least one." I don't know how the police made any sense of this, but presumably at some point I had explained what Tolliver and I did. I don't remember.
Detective Powers went through the whole question-and-answer routine about how we made our living, how long we'd been doing it, how much money we made, what our last case had been. I actually had to think for a minute about that, but then I remembered the Joyces' visit and I told him about it. He didn't seem too happy to discover that we were on speaking terms with a wealthy and powerful family.
A doctor came in, an older man with a fringe of hair and a worn-out face. I was on my feet in an instant.
"Mr. Lang's family?" He looked from me to Matthew. I could not speak; I was waiting. Matthew nodded.
"I'm Dr. Spradling, and I'm an orthopedic surgeon. I've just operated on Mr. Lang. Well, good news, on the whole. Mr. Lang was shot by a small-caliber bullet, probably from a.22 rifle or a handgun. It went through his clavicle, his collarbone."
I gasped. I couldn't help it. I was acting like a fool.
"So I've pinned the clavicle. There was no major damage to nerves or blood vessels from the bullet, so he was a lucky man-if you can call anyone who gets shot lucky. He made it through the surgery just fine," the doctor said. "And I think he's going to recover without many hitches. As far as what's going to happen next, he'll have to stay in the hospital for two or three days. If everything continues to go well, if no complications come up, he can be released. But he'll probably have to have IV antibiotics for a week after that. We can arrange for a visiting nurse to help with that, but you'll have to remain in the area, and I understand you don't have a residence here." He aimed his gaze more or less between us, as he waited to see what would develop.
I nodded frantically to assure him I understood. "Anything you say," I told Dr. Spradling.
"Where do you live, Miss Connelly? I understand he lives with you?"
I caught a glimpse of Matthew's face, and I thought maybe Matthew was about to try to take control of Tolliver's care. A huge fear bobbed to the top of all my other fears. Would they even let me in to see him if Matthew protested? I had to trump Matthew's fatherhood card. I opened my mouth and surprised myself by telling the doctor, totally out of the blue, "We're common-law married. What you call an informal marriage." Texas recognized an unmarried union, and I was pretty sure that was what they called it. Common-law wife might beat out stepsister. "We have an apartment in St. Louis. We've been together for six years."
The doctor couldn't have cared less. He just wanted to let me know what was going to be involved in taking care of Tolliver. He did, however, turn slightly so he was addressing me specifically. "It would be easier if you could find a place near to the hospital until he's stronger, when we release him. He's not out of the woods yet, but I really think he'll be all right."
"Okay." I ran all he'd said back through my mind, hoping I could remember it all. Broken clavicle, small-caliber bullet, no other major damage. Three days in the hospital. IV antibiotics a nurse would administer in the hotel. A closer hotel.
"They can stay with me and their brother if they need to," Matthew said, and the doctor nodded, clearly uninterested in the details. I could guarantee that wasn't going to happen, but this wasn't the time to settle it.
"As long as he can have someone responsible with him. He needs to be quiet and comfortable, get up and move around several times a day, take his meds on time, avoid alcohol, and eat good food," the doctor said. "And again, that's assuming he continues to do well. We'll know more tomorrow." Dr. Spradling wanted to be sure we were sufficiently warned.
I nodded vigorously, shaking with anxiety.
"I'll stay in his room here tonight," I said, and the doctor, who'd half turned away, made an effort to look sympathetic.
"Since he's just had surgery, he'll be checked on very frequently tonight," the doctor said. "And he won't be awake. You'd be much better off going home, cleaning up, and coming back in the morning. If you'll just leave a phone number, they'll contact you if there's any problem at all."
I looked down at myself. I had blood all over me, and it had dried. I looked... horrendous, and now I understood why everyone who walked by me glanced away. And I smelled like blood and fear. And I needed our car. So against my own inclinations, I asked Matthew to take me back to the motel.
The police had finished processing the ruins of our room by then. When I trudged into the lobby to talk to the woman at the front desk, I was greeted by the manager, an African American woman in her fifties with clipped hair and a sympathetic manner. She was anxious to get me out of sight of any guests who might come in, and when we were in the little room in back of the check-in desk, she made me sit down and brought me a cup of coffee, which I didn't remember requesting. Her name tag read Deneise.
"Miss Connelly," she said, very earnestly and sincerely, "if you'll give your consent, I'll send Cynthia into the room to gather up your clothes and your personal items."
I wondered where this scene was leading. "All right, Deneise," I said. "That would be very helpful."
She took a deep breath and said, "We hope you'll accept our regret that this terrible incident occurred, and we want to make this time as stress free for you as we can. We know you have so many things to think about."
I finally got it. Deneise was wondering if we considered the motel to blame in the shooting, and she wanted to feel me out about my intentions. And I think she was genuinely shaken up and sorry the whole thing had happened.
After Cynthia had been dispatched to the ruined room to salvage what she could of our stuff-to my relief, Matthew offered to go with her-Deneise got down to terms. "You may not want to stay here another night, Miss Connelly, but if you do, we'd love to have you."
I felt that was less than sincere, but I also didn't blame the woman.
"If you do decide to stay, of course we'd be glad to supply you with a comparable room free of charge, to show our regret that you've been... inconvenienced."
I almost smiled. "That's an understatement," I said. "Yes, I'd like to have a room for the rest of the night, but I'll be checking out first thing in the morning. I have to find something closer to the hospital."
"How is Mr. Lang doing?" Deneise asked, and I told her he was going to be all right.
"Oh, that's good news!" She seemed relieved on several different levels, and I didn't blame her a bit.
Now that the motel situation was settled, I was anxious to get into a room and get clean. The manager called Cynthia on her cell phone and told her to take our luggage directly to room 203.
"I thought you might feel better if you weren't on the ground level," she explained as she hung up.
"You're right," I said. I thought of the black hole of the window, and I shuddered. My face and shoulders were hurting, I was covered with dried dots and smears of blood, and suddenly I began shivering, now that I had the luxury of time for myself. Now that I thought Tolliver would be all right.
Matthew appeared in the office doorway. "Your stuff's in your new room, and I don't think anything is missing. Everything seems to be in your purse."
I didn't like the idea of Matthew having access to my purse, but he had been a real help tonight, and I had to give the devil his due. I told Deneise I was grateful she'd been so thoughtful, and with my new key card in hand, I went out to the lobby with Matthew to get in the elevator.
"Thanks," I said, as it rumbled up to the open area with snack machines and the ice maker. A couple coming up the stairs glanced at us curiously, and when they'd absorbed my bloody state, they hurried away to their room.
"That's okay," Matthew said. "I heard the shot, and I heard you scream. I ran across that parking lot pretty damn fast." He laughed.
I hadn't even realized I'd screamed.
"You didn't see anyone in the parking lot?"
"Nope. And it makes me nuts, because the shooter had to have been really close to me."
I stowed that idea away to think over later. "Well, I guess I'll see you at the hospital tomorrow, if you can get off work," I said. Abruptly, I wanted to be alone more than anything.
"You want me to call Iona?" Matthew asked.
When I said, "No!" he laughed, a choky sort of laugh that made him sound like Tolliver for a moment.
"You don't mind me saying so, you're pretty dependent on my son," Matthew said, chiming in with my thoughts so neatly that I was instantly angry.
"Your son is my lover and my family," I said. "We've been together for years. While you were gone."
"But you need to be able to function on your own," Matthew said in the righteous tone of someone who's had counseling; and because he was trying to sound gentle, I was even angrier. I may not be your garden-variety person, but I am not as fragile as I seem. Or maybe I am, but that wasn't any of Matthew Lang's business.
"I don't believe you have the right to tell me how I ought to live, how I ought to be," I said. "You have no rights over me. You never did. You never will. I appreciate your help tonight. I'm glad you finally did something for your son, though it took him getting shot for you to do it. You need to go now, because I have to shower." I used the key card, and the door to the new room swung open. The lights were on, and the room was warm. Our suitcases sat on the floor beside the bed.
