"The Friday plane to Budapest from Istanbul was far from full, and when we had settled in among the black-suited Turkish businessmen, the gray-jacketed Magyar bureaucrats talking in clumps, the old women in blue coats and head shawls - were they going to cleaning jobs in Budapest, or had their daughters married Hungarian diplomats? - I had only a short flight in which to regret the train trip we might have taken.
"That trip, with its tracks carved through mountain walls, its expanses of forest and cliff, river and feudal town, would have to wait for my later career, as you know, and I have taken it twice since then. There is something vastly mysterious for me about the shift one sees, along that route, from the Islamic world to the Christian, from the Ottoman to the Austro-Hungarian, from the Muslim to the Catholic and Protestant. It is a gradation of towns, of architecture, of gradually receding minarets blended with the advancing church domes, of the very look of forest and riverbank, so that little by little you begin to believe you can read in nature itself the saturation of history. Does the shoulder of a Turkish hillside really look so different from the slope of a Magyar meadow? Of course not, and yet the difference is as impossible to erase from the eye as the history that informs it is from the mind. Later, traveling this route, I would also see it alternately as benign and bathed in blood - this is the other trick of historical sight, to be unrelentingly torn between good and evil, peace and war. Whether I was imagining an Ottoman incursion across the Danube or the earlier sweep of the Huns toward it from the East, I was always plagued by conflicting images: a severed head brought into the encampment with cries of triumph and hatred, and then an old woman - maybe the greatest of grandmothers of those wrinkled faces I saw on the plane - dressing her grandson in warmer clothes, with a pinch on his smooth Turkic cheek and a deft hand making sure her stew of wild game didn't burn.
"These visions lay in the future for me, however, and during our plane trip, I regretted the panorama below without knowing what it was, or what thoughts it might later provoke in me. Helen, a more experienced and less excitable traveler, used the opportunity to sleep curled in her seat. We had been up late at the restaurant table in Istanbul two nights in a row, working on my lecture for the conference in Budapest. I had to admit to a greater knowledge of Vlad's battles with the Turks than I'd previously enjoyed - or not enjoyed - although that wasn't saying much. I hoped no one would ask any questions following my delivery of all this half-learned material. It was remarkable, though, what Helen had stored in her brain, and I marveled again that her self-education about Dracula had been fueled by so elusive a hope as showing up a father she could barely claim. When her head lolled in sleep onto my shoulder, I let it rest there, trying not to breathe in the scent - Hungarian shampoo? - of her curls. She was tired; I sat meticulously still while she slept.
"My first impression of Budapest, taken in through the windows of our taxi from the airport, was of a vast nobility. Helen had explained to me that we would be staying in a hotel near the university on the east side of the Danube, in Pest, but she had apparently asked our driver to take us along the Danube before dropping us off. One minute we were traversing dignified eighteenth-and nineteenth-century streets, enlivened here and there by a burst of art-nouveau fantasy or a tremendous old tree. The next minute we were in sight of the Danube. It was enormous - I hadn't been prepared for its grandeur - with three great bridges spanning it. On our side of the river rose the incredible neo-Gothic spires and dome of the Parliament Buildings, and on the opposite side rose the immense tree-cushioned flanks of the royal palace and the spires of medieval churches. In the midst of everything was that expanse of the river, gray-green, its surface finely scaled by wind and glinting with sunlight. A huge blue sky arched over the domes and monuments and churches, and touched the water with shifting colors.
"I had expected to be intrigued by Budapest, and to admire it; I had not expected to be awed. It had absorbed a panoply of invaders and allies, beginning with the Romans and ending with the Austrians - or the Soviets, I thought, remembering Helen's bitter comments - and yet it was different from all of them. It was neither quite Western, nor Eastern like Istanbul, nor, for all its Gothic architecture, northern European. I stared out the confining taxi window at a splendor wholly individual. Helen was staring, too, and after a moment she turned to me. Some of my excitement must have registered on my face, because she burst out laughing. 'I see you like our little town,' she said, and I heard under her sarcasm a keen pride. Then she added in a low voice, 'Dracula is one of our own here - did you know? In 1462 he was imprisoned by King Matthias Corvinus about twenty miles from Buda because he had threatened Hungary's interests in Transylvania. Corvinus apparently treated him more like a houseguest than a prisoner and even gave him a wife from the Hungarian royal family, although no one knows exactly who she was - Dracula's second wife. Dracula showed his gratitude by converting to the Catholic faith, and they were allowed to live in Pest for a while. And as soon as he was released from Hungary - '
"'I think I can imagine,' I said. 'He went right back to Wallachia and took over the throne as soon as possible and renounced his conversion.'
"'That is basically correct,' she admitted. 'You are getting a feel for our friend. He wanted more than anything to take and keep the Wallachian throne.'
"Too soon the taxi was looping back into the old section of Pest, away from the river, but here there were more wonders for me to gawk at, which I did without shame: balconied coffeehouses that imitated the glories of Egypt or Assyria, walking streets crowded with energetic shoppers and forested with iron street lanterns, mosaics and sculptures, angels and saints in marble and bronze, kings and emperors, violinists in white tunics playing on a street corner. 'Here we are,' Helen said suddenly. 'This is the university section, and there is the university library.' I craned to get a look at a fine classical building of yellow stone. 'We will go in there when we have the chance - in fact I want to look at something there. And here is our hotel, just off Magyarutca - Magyar Street, to you. I must find you a map somehow so you don't get lost.'
"The driver hauled out our bags in front of an elegant, patrician facade of gray stone, and I gave my hand to Helen to help her from the car. 'I thought so,' she said with a snort. 'They always use this hotel for conferences.'
"'It looks fine to me,' I ventured.
"'Oh, it is not bad. You will especially enjoy the choice of cold or cold water, and the factory food.' Helen was paying the driver from a selection of large silver and copper coins."'I thought Hungarian food was wonderful,' I said consolingly. 'I'm sure I've heard that somewhere. Goulash and paprika, and so on.'"Helen rolled her eyes. 'Everyone always mentions goulash if you say Hungary. Just as everyone mentions Dracula if you say Transylvania. ' She laughed. 'But you can ignore the hotel food. Wait until we eat at my aunt's house, or my mother's, and then we will discuss Hungarian cooking.'
"'I thought your mother and aunt were Romanian,' I objected, and was immediately sorry; her face froze.
"'You may think whatever you like, Yankee,' she told me peremptorily, and picked up her own suitcase before I could take it for her.
"The hotel lobby was quiet and cool, lined with marble and gilt from a more prosperous age. I found it pleasant and saw nothing for Helen to be ashamed of in it. A moment later I realized that I was in my first communist country - on the wall behind the front desk were photographs of government officials, and the dark blue uniform of all the hotel personnel had something selfconsciously proletarian about it. Helen checked us in and handed me my room key. 'My aunt has arranged things very well,' she said with satisfaction. 'And there is a telephone message from her to say that she will meet us here at seven o'clock this evening to take us out to dinner. We will go to register at the conference first, and attend a reception there at five o'clock.'
"I was disappointed by the news that the aunt would not be taking us home for her own Hungarian food and a glimpse of the life of the bureaucratic elite, but I reminded myself hurriedly that I was, after all, an American and should not expect every door to fly open to me here. I might be a risk, a liability, or at the least an embarrassment. In fact, I thought, I would do well to keep a low profile and make as little trouble as possible for my hosts. I was lucky to be here at all, and the last thing I wanted was any problem for Helen or her family.
"My room upstairs was plain and clean, with incongruous touches of former grandeur in the fat bodies of gilded cherubs in the upper corners and a marble basin in the shape of a great mollusk shell. As I washed my hands there and combed my hair in the mirror above it, I looked from the simpering putti to the narrow, tightly made bed, which could have been an army cot, and grinned. My room was on a different floor from Helen's this time - the aunt's foresight? - but at least I would have those outdated cherubs and their Austro-Hungarian wreaths for company.
"Helen was waiting for me in the lobby, and she led me silently through the grand doors of the hotel into the grand street. She was wearing her pale blue blouse again - in the course of our travels, I had gradually become rather rumpled while she managed still to look washed and ironed, which I took for some kind of East European talent - and she had pinned her hair up in a soft roll in the back. She was lost in thought as we strolled toward the university. I didn't dare ask what she was thinking, but after a while she told me of her own volition. 'It is so odd to come back here very suddenly like this,' she said, glancing at me.
"'And with a strange American?'
"'And with a strange American,' she murmured, which didn't sound like a compliment.
"The university was made up of impressive buildings, some of them echoes of the fine library we'd seen earlier, and I began to feel some trepidation when Helen gestured toward our destination, a large classical hall bordered around the second story with statues. I stopped to crane up at them and was able to read some of their names, spelled in their Magyar versions: Plato, Descartes, Dante, all of them crowned with laurels and draped in classical robes. The other figures were less familiar to me: Szent Istv¨¢n, M¨¢ty¨¢s Corvinus, J¨¢nos Hunyadi. They brandished scepters or bore mighty crowns aloft.
"'Who are they?' I asked Helen.
"'I'll tell you tomorrow,' she said. 'Come on - it's after five now.'
"We entered the hall with several animated young people I took to be students and made our way to a huge room on the second floor. My stomach lurched a little; the place was full of professors in black or gray or tweed suits and crooked ties - they had to be professors - eating from little plates of red peppers and white cheese and drinking something that smelled like a strong medication. They were all historians, I thought with a groan, and although I was supposed to be one of them, my heart was sinking fast. Helen was immediately surrounded by a knot of colleagues, and I caught a glimpse of her shaking hands in a comradely way with a man whose white pompadour reminded me of some kind of dog. I had almost decided to go pretend to look out the window at the magnificent church facade opposite when Helen's hand grasped my elbow for a split second - was that wise of her? - and steered me into the crowd.
"'This is Professor S¨¢ndor, the chairman of the history department at the University of Budapest and our greatest medievalist,' she told me, indicating the white dog, and I hurried to introduce myself. My hand was crushed in a grip of iron, and Professor S¨¢ndor expressed his great honor at having me join the conference. I wondered briefly if he was the friend of the mysterious aunt. To my surprise, he spoke a clear, if slow, English. 'The pleasure is all ours,' he told me warmly. 'We expect happily your lecture tomorrow.'
"I expressed my reciprocal feeling of honor at being allowed to address the conference and was very careful not to catch Helen's eye as I spoke.
"'Excellent,' Professor S¨¢ndor boomed. 'We have a big respect for the universities of your country. May our two countries live in peace and friendship for every year.' He saluted me with his glass of the medicinal clear stuff I'd been smelling, and I hastened to return the salute, since a glass of it had magically appeared in my hand. 'And now, if there is something we can do to make your stay in our beloved Budapest more happier, you must say it.' His great dark eyes, bright in an aging face and contrasting weirdly with his white mane, reminded me for a moment of Helen's, and I took a sudden liking to him.
"'Thank you, Professor,' I told him sincerely, and he slapped my back with a big paw.
"'Please, come, eat, drink, and we will talk.' Right after this, however, he vanished to other duties, and I found myself in the midst of eager questions from the other members of the faculty and visiting scholars, some of whom looked even younger than I. They clustered around me and Helen, and gradually I heard among their voices a babble of French and German, and some other language that might have been Russian. It was a lively group, a charming group, actually, and I began to forget my nervousness. Helen introduced me with a distant graciousness that struck me as just the right note for the occasion, explaining smoothly the nature of our work together and the article we would soon be publishing in an American journal. The eager faces crowded around her, too, with quick questions in Magyar, and a little flush came to her face as she shook hands and even kissed the cheeks of a few of her old acquaintances. They had not forgotten her, clearly - but then how could they? I thought. I noticed that she was one of several women in the room, some older than she and a few quite young, but she eclipsed all of them. She was taller, more vivid, more poised, with her broad shoulders, her beautifully shaped head and heavy curls, her look of animated irony. I turned to one of the Hungarian faculty members so that I would not stare at her; the fiery drink was starting to course through my veins.
"'Is this a typical gathering at a conference here?' I wasn't sure what I meant, but it was something to say while I took my eyes off Helen.
"'Yes,' said my companion proudly. He was a short man of about sixty in a gray jacket and gray tie. 'We have many international gatherings at the university, especially now.'
"I wanted to ask what he meant by especially now, but Professor S¨¢ndor had materialized again and was guiding me toward a handsome man who seemed very eager to meet me. 'This is Professor G¨¦za J¨®zsef,' he told me. 'He would like to make your acquaintance.' Helen turned at the same moment, and to my utter surprise I saw a look of displeasure - was it even disgust? - flash over her face. She made her way toward us immediately, as if to intervene.
"'How are you, G¨¦za?' She was shaking hands with him, formally and a little coldly, before I'd even had time to greet the man.
"'How good to see you, Elena,' Professor J¨®zsef said, bowing a little to her, and I caught something strange in his voice, too, which could have been mockery but could have been some other emotion. I wondered if they were speaking English only for my benefit.
"'And you,' she said flatly. 'Allow me to introduce my colleague with whom I have been working in America - '
"'What a pleasure to meet you,' he said, giving me a smile that illuminated his fine features. He was taller than I, with thick brown hair and the confident posture of a man who loves his own virility - he would have been magnificent on horseback, riding across the plains with herds of sheep, I thought. His handshake was warm, and he gave me a welcoming cudgel on the shoulder with his other hand. I failed to see why Helen would find him repulsive, although I couldn't shake the impression that she did. 'And you will honor us with a lecture tomorrow? That is splendid,' he said. Then he paused for a second. 'But my English is not so good. Would you prefer we speak in French? German?'
"'Your English is far better than either my French or German, I'm sure,' I responded promptly.
"'You are very kind.' His smile was a meadow of flowers. 'I understand your field is the Ottoman domination of the Carpathians?'
"News certainly traveled fast here, I thought; it was just like home. 'Ah, yes,' I concurred. 'Although I am sure I will have much to learn from your faculty on that subject.'
"'Surely no,' he murmured kindly. 'But I have done a little research on it myself and would be pleased to discuss it with you.'
"'Professor J¨®zsef has a great range of interests,' Helen put in. Her tone would have frozen hot water. This was all very puzzling, but I reminded myself that every academic department suffers from civil unrest, if not outright war, and that this one was probably no exception. Before I could think of anything conciliatory to say, Helen turned to me abruptly. 'Professor, we must go to our next meeting,' she said. For a second, I didn't know whom she was addressing, but she put her hand firmly under my arm.
"'Oh, I see you are very busy.' Professor J¨®zsef was all regret. 'Perhaps we can discuss the Ottoman question another time? I would be pleased to show you a little of our city, Professor, or take you for lunch - '
"'The professor will be fully engaged throughout the conference,' Helen told him. I shook hands with the man as warmly as her icy gaze would permit, and then he took her free hand in his.
"'It is a delight to see you back in your homeland,' he told her, and bowing over her hand, he kissed it. Helen snatched it away, but a strange look crossed her face. She was somehow moved by the gesture, I decided, and for the first time I disliked the charming Hungarian historian. Helen steered me back to Professor S¨¢ndor, where we made our apologies and expressed our eagerness to hear the next day's lectures.
"'And we will expect your lecture with all the pleasure.' He pressed my hand in both of his. Hungarians were tremendously warm people, I thought with a glow that was only partly the effect of the drink in my bloodstream. As long as I postponed all real thought of that lecture myself, I felt adrift in satisfaction. Helen took my arm, and I thought she searched the room with a quick glance before we made our exit.
"'What was that all about?' The evening air was refreshingly cool, and I felt more aglow than ever. 'Your compatriots are the most cordial people I think I've ever met, but I had the impression you were ready to behead Professor J¨®zsef.'
"'I was,' she said shortly. 'He is unsufferable.'
"'Insufferable, more likely,' I pointed out. 'What makes you treat him like that? He greeted you as an old friend.'
"'Oh, there's nothing wrong with him, really, except that he is a flesh-eating vulture. A vampire, actually.' She stopped short and stared at me, her eyes large. 'I didn't mean - '
"'Of course you didn't,' I said. 'I checked his canines.'
"'You are unsufferable, too,' she said, taking her arm from mine.
"I looked regretfully at her. 'I don't mind your holding my arm,' I said lightly, 'but is that a good idea in front of your entire university?'
"She stood gazing at me, and I couldn't decipher the darkness in her eyes.
'Don't worry. There was not anyone present from anthropology.'
"'But you knew many of the historians, and people talk,' I persisted.
"'Oh, not here.' She gave her dry snort of laughter. 'We are all workers-in-arms together here. No gossip or conflict - only comradely dialectic. You will see tomorrow. It is really quite a little utopia.'
"'Helen,' I groaned. 'Would you be serious, for once? I'm simply worried about your reputation here - your political reputation. After all, you must come back here someday and face all these people.'
"'Must I?' She took my arm again, and we walked on. I made no move to pull away; there was little I could have valued more at that moment than the brush of her black jacket against my elbow. 'Anyway, it was worth it. I did it only to make G¨¦za gnash his teeth. His fangs, that is.'
"'Well, thank you,' I muttered, but I didn't trust myself to say anything more. If she had intended to make anyone jealous, it had certainly worked with me. I suddenly saw her in G¨¦za's strong arms. Had they been involved before Helen had left Budapest? They would have been a striking match, I thought - both were so handsomely confident, so tall and graceful, so dark haired and broad shouldered. I felt, suddenly, puny and Anglo, no match for the horsemen of the steppe. Helen's face prohibited further questions, however, and I had to content myself with the silent weight of her arm.
"All too soon, we turned in at the gilded doors of the hotel and were in the hushed lobby. As soon as we entered, a lone figure stood up among the black upholstered chairs and potted palms, waiting quietly for us to approach. Helen gave a little cry and ran forward, her hands outstretched. '?va!'"
