They looked older now. Picker, Antsy. Wan and red-eyed, shoulders slumped, not bothering to rinse the dried blood from their faces, hands and forearms.
Duiker alone seemed unchanged, as if these last deaths had been little more than someone pissing into a wide, deep river. His sadness was an absolute thing, and he never came up for air. She wanted to take him in her arms and shake the life back into him. Yet she would not do that, for she knew such a gesture would be a selfish one, serving only her own neteds. As much, perhaps, as her initial im-inline to embrace him in sympathy.
Because she too felt like weeping. For having dragged the historian out into the city-away from what had happened here the past night. For having saved his life,
When they’d first arrived back; when they’d seen the bodies on the.street; when they’d stepped inside to look upon the carnage, Duiker had shot her a single glance, and in that she had read clearly the thought behind it. See what you look me away from? A thought as far away from the sentiment of gratitude that it might as well be in another realm.
The truth was obvious. He would rather have been here. He would rather have died last night. Instead, interfering bitch that she was, Scillara had refused him that release. Had instead left him in this sad life that would not end. That glance had been harder, more stinging, than a savage slap in the face.
She should have gone below. Should be standing there in that narrow, cramped cellar, holding Chaur’s hand, listening to them all grieve, each in their own way. Antsy’s curses. Picker at his side, so close as to be leaning on him, but otherwise expressionless beyond the bleakness of her glazed stare. Barathol and his glisten-ing beard, his, puffy eyes, the knotted muscles ravaging his brow.
The door opened suddenly, sending a shaft of daylight through suspended dust, and in stepped the gray-haired bard.
She and Duiker watched as the man shut the door behind him and replaced the solid iron bar in its slots-how he had ended up with that bar in his hands was a mystery, yet neither Scillara nor the historian commented.
The man approached, and she saw that he too had not bothered to change his clothes, wearing the old blood with the same indifference she had seen in the others.
There’d been a half-dozen bodies, maybe more, at the stage. A passing observa-tion from Blend implicated the bard in that slaughter, but Scillara had trouble be-lieving that. This man was gaunt, old. Yet her eyes narrowed on the blood spatter on his shirt.
He sat down opposite them, met Duiker’s eyes, and said, ‘Whatever they have decided to do, Historian, they can count me in.’
‘So they did try for you, too,’ said Scillara.
He met her gaze. ‘Scillara, they attacked everyone in the room. They killed in-nocents.’
‘I don’t think they’ll do anything,’’ said Duiker, ‘except sell up and leave.’
‘Ah,’ the bard said, then sighed. ‘No matter. I will not be entirely on my own in any case.’
‘What do you mean?’
‘I called in an old favour, Historian. Normally, I am not one to get involved in… things.’
‘But you’re angry,’ Scillara observed, recognizing at last the odd flatness in the old man’s eyes, the flatness that came before- before cold killing. This poet has claws indeed. And now I look at him, he’s not as old as I thought he was.
‘I am, yes.’
From below there came a splintering crack followed by shouts of surprise. All three at the table swiftly rose. Duiker leading the way, they ran to the kitchen, then down the narrow stairs to the cellar. Torchlight wavered at the far end of the elongated storage room, casting wild shadows on a bizarre scene. Pungent fluid sloshed on the earthen floor, seeming reluctant to drain, and in a half-circle stood the two Malazans, Barathol and Chaur, all facing one side wall where a large cask had shattered.
Antsy, Scillara surmised, had just kicked it.
Splitting it open, in a cascade of pickling juice, revealing to them all the object that liquid had so perfectly preserved.
Folded up with knees beneath chin, arms wrapped round the shins.
Still wearing a mask on which four linear, vertical barbs marked a row across the forehead.
The bard grunted. ‘I’d often wondered/ he said under his breath, ‘where the old ones ended up.’
The fluids were now seeping into the floor, along the edges of the freshly dug mounds.
A hundred stones, a cavort of ripples, the city in its life which is one life which is countless lives. To ignore is to deny brotherhood, sisterhood, the commonality that, could it be freed, would make the world a place less cruel, less vicious. But who has. time for that? Rush this way, plunge that way, evade every set of eyes, permit no recognition in any of the faces flashing past. The dance of trepidation is so very tiresome.
